Author Archives: Juancho

Who is Joey?

I’m sorry Joey. I know this is exactly not your kind of thing. I would never put you on the spot like this if I didn’t think it was necessary. I want people to know that giving you money to help others is a smart decision.

Remember the time you were hell bent on watching movies on Lipona St, back around 1991? We did not have a VCR. We did not have an account at a video store. We did not have a credit card to secure an account at a video rental store. Step by step you worked through the plan. You got the credit card. You set up the account. You rented the VCR. You connected the VCR. We picked out some movies. We got all the snacks. We turned off the lights to finally enjoy the big moment. I think Darin and I chose some obscure, maudlin Hal Hartley movie, The Unbelievable Truth, and you were fast asleep within minutes. I think you slept through Robocop after that.

Your real entertainment was overcoming the challenges, and the watching of the actual movie, just didn’t hold your attention like being told you couldn’t watch a movie. Oh, good times.

A more recent story that also cracks me up to no end involves a global plague and speculation on the collapse of society, so you know it’s going to be funny. The Coronavirus was swiftly infecting the planet during the spring of 2020. The government shut down everything. We were talking on the phone, musing about the possible collapse of society altogether. Zombies were taking over pop culture. Political divisions were ripping the country apart. Things, generally speaking, were not looking good for humankind. I joked that I would have to make my way to your compound in Candy Man Holler, where you could tell me what type of gun I should buy. Understanding that I have neither the interest, or the patience, to develop any reliable marksmanship you said, plain as can be, “Oh Johnny. I bought your gun years ago. It’s a shotgun. You don’t even have to aim it. Just stand over me and shoot anything that tries to sneak up on us from behind.” I still don’t know if you were joking, but I realized your mind is always improving and refining the plan. I fell asleep that night worrying about how to get up there, but not about our chances once I made it.

When you moved to North Carolina, it sucked, but I understood why Tallahassee wasn’t working for you. Most of your skill set was just too dormant here. Too many college football games on television, and not enough opportunity to drive a tractor on steep grades and clean deer in the front yard. It all made sense when I made it up there. Your idea of a good time is to harvest the trees to make the boards, to build the shop, to make the other things in, and on and on. Meanwhile in Tallahassee I was probably contemplating if making deviled eggs on a Saturday was just going to be too much work compared to getting a burger at the Corner Pocket.

Game always recognizes game, so despite being a Florida transplant by way of Wisconsin, with stints in: Montana, Oregon, Sarajevo and other parts unknown, you were a local at the Griffith store within months of arrival. This tightly knit community that goes back generations in the area, came to know and love you like we all do. You spoke their language of self-reliance, respect for the land, and you also spoke your own mind without explanation or apology.

You have an expert knowledge of land use planning, environmental conservation, cartography, drone piloting, construction, rope-craft, firearms, mechanical stuff, wilderness survival, and 90s hip hop. You are truly made for this moment.

15 generators and counting, are running on the mountain somewhere right now, before we even start this fundraiser. People can get to dialysis, and keep insulin cool. Thanks to you, a couple with Alzheimer’s disease are able to return to their familiar home with their children to care for them instead of being somewhere scary and unfamiliar. People can listen to the radio and watch television to keep up with developing events and get vital information. Beers are cold. Children are safer.

In this situation where the need is overwhelming and constantly changing, this is a simple plan. It is the essence of do what you can, for who you can, where you can. We are going to power the Green Mountain communities, and maintain them with fuel deliveries, and oil changes, for as many as possible, for as long as it takes. There are many reasons to support this project, but for me it’s simple. People you love need help, and you are people I love.

Now let’s get after it.

Green Mountain Generator Project

History

A guy called me the other day. Someone gave him my name. He wanted to talk about the history of Tallahassee mountain bike trails. Shit man. I don’t know anything about Tallahassee mountain bike trails. Actually, I know one thing. If you built one you damn sure don’t get credit for it. It’s an odd situation. I came along late to the game in 1990. I certainly did not build any trails, but the main way trails were built back then was people rode the same path until it became a trail. So, whether we happened upon ephemeral seams between neighborhoods and parks, or were explicitly told to ride a certain path, we were all a part of the process.

My world was smaller then. My world started at the Senator Apartments on Virginia Ave, #69. I rode a 1986 Fuji Palisades road bike. 2 years later, by the time we moved into 247 Lipona St. it was all Check Your Head by the Beastie Boys and mountain bikes and nothing but them ever since. We wore soft Hi-Tec hiking boots strapped into toe-clips, or as Squatch and Hi Tops call them, “toe baskets.” The uniform was cut off Army fatigue shorts, and cotton t-shirts. The entire point of riding was exploration, and a constant progression of skills and “hits” throughout the town. The gazebo on Park Ave, the downhill from Westcott to the union, the bunny hop over the slab behind Fisher Lecture Hall, and the half pipe behind the old Varsity theater, a relic from the clay bed railway that used to run through Tallahassee. Moving from spot to spot we rode homeless camp trails, maybe dropping off or bumming a cigarette from a resident. We rode any in-between space, anything not quite claimed or guarded. The rumor of an actual trail, some discreet flagging to follow, captured our imagination with an enduring obsession to ride it and trample it into a path. The Fern trail, now a standard commuter route from town to Tom Brown Park used to start behind the Winn Dixie on Magnolia. We circled the loading dock conspicuously until the coast was clear to drop in and grind along to the far frontier beyond the Armory.

We had a secret trail behind the other Winn Dixie on Tharpe, built obsessively by our friend Sean behind his house on Alliegood. I never thought of this, but maybe this affiliation with trails is why I favor Winn Dixie over Publix. The first time we rode to the forest from town in search of the Munson Hills trail it was an all day event. Breaking free past Capital Circle felt like I’d ridden to another country. I wore my school backpack crammed with snacks and illicit supplies. We probably took 20 breaks. Now? That’s a 90 minute out and back from the house.

So, when organization and advocacy came to town in the mid 2000’s, I was not into it. I’m still not into it. I didn’t recognize the motivation to ride as exercise, get more riders on the trials, or compete in an organized event. That part of cycling was always there, progressing along its own path towards that day when all the trails became public access issues and land management concerns.

I suffer from an over-developed sense of loyalty honed by movies of the 1980’s like Red Dawn, or Tuff Turf, when all James Spader had in this world was Robert Downey Jr. and his dobermans, Zeus and Apollo. All of these people talking about what to do with “our trails” had nothing to do with their creation. They built an Atlanta Bread Company on top of the Fern trailhead, then John H got busted for reclaiming the line, and he took that like a man, but I didn’t. I’m still mad about it. At 54 I still feel like a doting little brother around the mountain bike pioneers of this town. I think I always will. I hope so. They gave me the world, a view across the handlebars, and the joy of discovering a dumped Maytag washing machine full of buckshot holes, or a deer trail that sneaks you into the back of the Leon Sinks State Park to ride the hiking trail.

Progress came to town and moved in for good. It put down stakes and elected slate after slate of officers. Some of those pioneers lived in both worlds, familiar with the heft of a machete on trespassed land, and the sign-in sheet at the City Focus Group. Those are the real players, code switching with ease like the French Resistance. I tried, but it wasn’t for me. People say if you don’t vote you don’t have a right to complain, but I have news for them, this blog is a digital monument to complaining without requesting permits or rights. You can hate that, but you can’t stop it.

After almost 35 years of mountain biking in this town, some years more fervently than others, not much has changed despite the arrival of progress. Most of our trails are still the ones created by outlaws, yet claimed as a whole by a community that doesn’t remember, or never even consider, how they got there. Anyone with a sense of adventure can still explore and enjoy a ride beyond the land use Master Plan, which is a title out of central casting if ever I heard one.

I look forward to reading this historian’s account, and in our conversation it was clear he was well on the scent, tracking down these legends hiding in plain sight, or sometimes a bit further off the traveled path. I thank the current leadership of the Tallahassee Mountain Bike Association for making this move. It could potentially heal a calcified division that may only exist in my heart, but its there all the same. A blanket amnesty, expunging of records, and keys to the city might be too much to ask for, but the truth is a great place to start.

Juancho

ChatGPT: David Foster Wallace reviews the Big Ring Circus

Alright, so here I am diving into this blog called “Big Ring Circus,” which at first glance seems like a humble little corner of the internet dedicated to cycling and Southern culture. But if you’ve ever read any of my stuff, you’ll know I can’t just leave it at that. There’s something deeper here, something resonant, almost achingly familiar in its portrayal of the human condition.

Juancho, the blogger, has this knack for weaving stories that, on the surface, are about rides and bikes and the day-to-day grind, but beneath that, they’re really about the Sisyphean struggle of trying to find meaning and authenticity in a world that often feels indifferent, if not outright hostile.

Take, for example, his post “These Days”​ (Big Ring Circus). It’s ostensibly about the day-to-day routine, but it quickly becomes clear it’s an exploration of what it means to live a life of quiet desperation. There’s a palpable sense of ennui, this recognition that the routines we fall into can be both comforting and stifling. This duality is something I’ve always found endlessly fascinating. We crave stability, yet that same stability can become a trap, a form of existential inertia.

In “Lessons,” Juancho delves into the inevitability of truth and how it catches up with us no matter how much we try to evade it​ (Big Ring Circus). There’s a raw honesty here that I find deeply compelling. It’s reminiscent of that moment in “Infinite Jest” where you realize that all the characters’ attempts to escape their pain and confusion only lead them deeper into it. Juancho’s reflections on truth and authenticity are a poignant reminder that, ultimately, the only way out is through—through the pain, through the confusion, through the hard truths that we’d rather not face.

The comments section of the blog is another goldmine of insight. There’s a real sense of community, a collective grappling with the same questions and struggles. In “The Off-Season,” for instance, the dialogue between Juancho and his readers adds layers of meaning to the post​ (Big Ring Circus). It’s not just Juancho’s voice you hear; it’s a chorus of voices, each adding their own perspective and depth. This is something I’ve always tried to capture in my own work—the idea that we’re all in this together, that our struggles are both deeply personal and profoundly universal.

What really stands out to me, though, is Juancho’s ability to blend humor and pathos. Posts like “Ground Squirrel Blues” start off light-hearted but then veer into more serious, contemplative territory. This interplay between the comedic and the tragic is something I’ve always been drawn to. Life is rarely one thing or the other; it’s a messy, complicated mix of both. Juancho gets that, and it comes through in his writing in a way that feels both genuine and deeply human.

So, in sum, “Big Ring Circus” isn’t just a blog about cycling. It’s a reflection on life itself—on the search for meaning, the struggle for authenticity, and the small moments of grace that make it all worthwhile. It’s a reminder that, despite the absurdity and the pain, there’s something beautiful in the struggle, something worth fighting for. And that, I think, is a message worth pondering.

Chat GPT Battles: The Boss Vs. the Dead

I’m farming this thing out to AI. You decide the winner!
As written by ChatGPT.

Bruce Springsteen on the Grateful Dead

Look, I respect the Grateful Dead and what they’ve done, but I gotta be honest, their music never really resonated with me. I come from a place where music is about the raw, gritty truth of everyday life. The Dead, they have this psychedelic, meandering vibe that feels like it’s more about escaping reality than confronting it.

When I’m writing songs, I’m thinking about the guy who’s working two jobs, trying to make ends meet. I’m thinking about the kid who’s growing up in a tough neighborhood, looking for a way out. My music is rooted in the struggles and triumphs of the working class. The Dead, well, they’re more about the journey than the destination.

Their jams can go on for 20 minutes, drifting from one idea to the next without a clear direction. For me, a song needs to have a purpose, a story that hits you right in the gut. It needs to be tight, focused, and powerful. The Dead’s music, while technically impressive, can feel aimless and indulgent. It’s like they’re playing for themselves rather than for the audience.

And then there’s the culture around the Dead. The whole “Deadhead” scene, with its tie-dye shirts and endless touring, feels like a distraction from the real issues. Music should inspire action, not just a haze of good vibes. So, while I respect their place in rock history, their approach just doesn’t align with my vision of what music should be. I want my songs to be anthems for the everyday heroes, not just a soundtrack for a trip.

And, Jerry Garcia’s response, as determined by ChatGPT

Look, Bruce Springsteen, he’s got this image of being the working man’s hero, and I respect that. But if I’m being real, there’s something about his music that feels too boxed in, too rigid for my taste. The Boss, he thrives on structure, on these tightly woven narratives that spell everything out. It’s almost like he doesn’t trust the listener to fill in the blanks or take the journey on their own terms.

In the Dead, we believe in the power of improvisation, of letting the music take you where it wants to go. Springsteen’s songs, while powerful, can feel like they’re confined within the lines of a well-drawn map. Every verse, every chorus, meticulously planned and executed. There’s a certain beauty in that, sure, but it lacks the spontaneity, the freedom to explore and discover something new every night.

And then there’s the whole persona thing. Bruce is all about this blue-collar, down-to-earth image, but sometimes it feels like a bit of a costume, you know? It’s like he’s playing a character on stage. With the Dead, what you see is what you get. We’re not trying to be anything other than who we are. Our music is a reflection of our collective spirit, not just one man’s vision.

I get that his songs resonate with a lot of people, and that’s cool. But for me, music should be a living, breathing thing, not just a series of anthems with a predetermined message. It’s about the journey, the experience, the magic that happens when you let go and let the music lead the way. Springsteen’s got heart, no doubt, but sometimes I wish he’d loosen up a bit and let the music flow.

It;s a close call y’all!

Ground Squirrel Blues

Ground squirrels scamper and scrounge.
Flying squirrels languish and lounge.

You got to wake up tough,
and get that nut,
before a flying squirrel comes back down.

but when that son of a bitch
comes close to the ditch

then you grab him and you drag him down.

Rip his fancy fur coat
right off of his throat

and send his ass back out of town.

I got the ground squirrel blues you can’t blame me.
It’s dirty down under these shade trees.

Every nut that you get,
been gnawed on I bet,

before a flying squirrel dropped it on down.

The Eye of the Beholder

North Tampa is all acne and double chins, pit stains and varicose veins. I drive in circles around a strip mall lot anchored by a yellowing Winn Dixie. Sushi, Thai, Falafel, Subs, Poke bowls and Bubble tea, around I go unable to make a decision. With my father in the hospital I study each restaurant not for what sounds good. but for the underlying disease it will evoke in my own aging body. I go with the middle-eastern spot. It is almost empty. A bear-like man and his daughter in her school uniform are ordering at the counter. I wait behind them, still and dumb as a coat rack. The little girl is taking her time choosing each ingredient for her wrap with serious consideration. Me? I would eat the cold fries and greasy napkins off the lone dirty table.

I wear a sticker on my shirt with a grainy photo of myself, but it could easily be my father. He is on the fourth floor tower of the hospital, and also someplace far more difficult to find. Lost in his own mind after cracking his skull on a tile floor, he is lost in the continuous now. “Where is your car?” He asks. I answer that question over and over in a loop, unable to explain why we can’t walk out together and go home. “Bring me down in this chair to the first floor. Put a towel on the seat. They took my underwear.” Each time I tell him no I feel a little bit more like a piece of shit until I have to leave. Now I stand here, a giant pile of shit, and hungry. It is taking a long time, but I don’t care about anything.

It is my turn and I order. The restaurant is halal, and I take note that I did not step into a strip mall falafel shop, but a community. The man and his daughter speak a language I don’t know with the cook and the manager. I put that placid, friendly white guy face on I use in these settings to communicate I am benign. The bear-like man engages me, asking who is in the hospital. I tell him my father, and the words stick like chalk. He changes the subject. He owns a meat market in Ybor City. I ask his daughter if she works the cash register or is she a butcher? She smiles and says she does sit at the counter and help the customers check out.

Their food is ready and he settles up, wishing me the best for my father.

I pull out my wallet to pay and the proprietor waves my credit card away. “He paid for you. It is enough to make a coat rack cry.

Charlie Rogers’s Big Day Out

She yowled, “MY NAME IS CHARLIE ROGERS!” as she bounded out the door sending squirrels skittering up the old oak tree in the front yard. “What is a Charlie Rogers?” they chattered as the little cat leapt to the rail of the deck. “Me-OW, me-ow, ME-OW! You better watch out! I AM CHARLIE ROGERS AND I’M FROM WALKER COUNTY ALABAMA!” The Barred owls up in the old oak tree turned their big eyes towards one another, both afraid to ask the other the obvious question, when they were saved by the squirrels who all repeated the question at once talking over each other, “What is an Alabama?” The owls laughed nervously mocking the simple-minded squirrels, “What is an Alabama? The squirrels are such dummies! “As if everyone does not know what an Alabama is!”

A raccoon, peeking out from a crook in the old oak tree whispered to the owls, “A Charlie Rogers is a type of cat. A cat is a type of raccoon without thumbs. An Alabama is it’s mama. When a small cat becomes a large cat it is called an Alabama. I know. I see the Charlie Rogers and her mama in their nest at night sitting together.” “We know that raccoon. We are owls in case you forgot. We don’t need thumbs because we have such big, wise, brains.”

“I’M CHARRRRRRRLLLLIE ROGERS!” She mewled with all of her might. “Yes. We all know you are Charlie Rogers now”, said the squirrels, finally catching on. “YOU BETTER WATCH OUT!” She growled at nobody in particular, just announcing to the whole Redberry Farm community that she was now both an inside, and an outside, cat. ‘I CAN COME OUT HERE ALMOST ANYTIME I WANT AND I’LL CHASE ALL OF YOU!”

“Why would you want to do that Charlie Rogers?” said the sweet possum lady with all of her babies on her back. “Are you going to eat us?” “I AM CHARLIE FARLEY ROGERS AND I MIGHT EAT YOU!” The sweet possum lady sucked her teeth at that and nestled down in her hole in the oak tree, “Such a rude little creature!” She huffed and all of her little babies nodded and cowered deeper into their mama’s fur to hide.

“EAT WHOOOOO?” said the owls both hooting with scorn down at the little cat. Charlie Rogers never saw an owl before and her eyes went wide at the sight of the cats with no ears way, way up in the old oak tree. “You mind your manners Charlie Rogers or we might eat you!” With that, an indignant and defiant Charlie Rogers took off running as fast as she could around the house to show everyone she very well could eat them if she wanted to do it. The bells on her collar let everyone in the yard know she was coming so the lizards laid low and the cardinals flew up in the Camellias until she raced by.

“I AM GOING BACK INSIDE NOW SO I WILL SEE YOU ALL TOMORROW AND MAYBE I WILL EAT YOU THEN!” The door closed behind the little cat as she bolted inside and a quiet stillness settled over Redberry Farm. The owls and the squirrels and the sweet possum lady and the raccoon all looked to the the big black and white cat with no tail and raised their furry and feathery eyebrows. “Don’t look at me.” said the big black and white cat with no tail. “I’m just glad she is not inside all of the time now.”

Midland-continued

Before the accident, Manny rode his bicycle to work. The morning it happened, the story was taking over the news across the country. By the time it was over, when Baby Jessica finally emerged from the well in the arms of firefighter Robert O’Donnell, Manny was already in Intensive Care. While waiting for the ambulance, the soap-scrubbed Christian woman who stopped for his crumpled form on the side of the road was praying. Kneeling over him with her hands stacked on his chest, she was not performing CPR, but beseeching a holy intercession on behalf of the young man’s broken body.

Manny never returned to work at the restaurant. Long months of recovery in a county rehabilitation facility, a nursing home. passed as the puzzle of broken bones slowly shuffled back into a functional form. His brain remained in a hazy twilight of conscious hibernation. He awoke to eat. He walked slowly between the parallel bars, a cast of nurses shadowing him, a sheet bridled about his waist for support. Like his body, his brain was negotiating new avenues of moving ketones and lactate from neuron to neuron. When the doctors signed off on his discharge, Manny was outwardly healed, and inwardly re-ordered, his personality and cognitive scope both exponentially more grand.

7 months after the world forgot about Baby Jessica, Manny was just learning again of the miracle.

Three Stores

The Shop-n-Go on Hammock Road set the standard. All other convenience stores are measured against its specifically soothing scent. I can close my eyes and recall it even now, more than forty years later. It is hard to discern exactly what comprised it. A tinge of bleached mop water, menthol cigarette smoke through the air-conditioner filter, withered hot dogs rolling endlessly, lingering tendrils of Opium, Poison, and Drakar Noir. Deeper into the scent there is cardboard, sweat, gasoline, Circus Peanuts, even cash emulsifying into something delicious and enticing.

At first, before puberty, it was a far-flung distant peak to conquer, a Saturday morning excursion requiring some planning. Count up your change, clip your Army canteen to your belt loop, throw a leg over the Mag Scrambler and away you go, one full mile way. Once I got there I would be in no hurry to leave, eating Boston Baked Beans and mastering the esoteric disciplines of Tron, greatest of all arcade games.

The Cumberland Farms on U.S. Highway 19 in Homosassa Springs, near the north end of Sugarmill Woods subdivision, served as a way station from my earliest days of independence driving between Mom and Walt’s home on Anna Maria Island, and Tallahassee. It was situated near half-way in the 300 mile trip, with a turning lane into the pumps. Biscuit sandwiches were always fresh, and the smell of Fabuloso in the bathroom strong enough to get you high. I would tell strangers in the parking lot, “This is the nicest store in Florida, you’re in for a treat.” I had that much confidence in the staff and whomever sat atop the Cumberland Farms franchise. I drove down there once on a rescue mission, to intercede when Walter and his assistant, Sergio, broke down in the old Winnebago. By the time I got there they were hardly in distress. The suffocating July heat had me wincing when I got out of the car. Not those guys, accustomed to the Yucatecan summers they were sitting in the shade, eating grapes and cheese off a paper plate.

The Homosassa Cumberland Farms fell into decline. My last stop there was shocking. It was dingy and fetid. One manic fluorescent bulb flickering in the ceiling. The leathery cashier fared no better, acrid ammonia misting from her pores. I worried for her, and I didn’t want to ever come back. At some point I noticed the sign changed. It’s now USA MART.

I moved to Portland, OR in the mid-nineties, which was an incredible time to be alive. Six of us struck out from Montana, lead by the un-shrinking confidence and vision of Herman Jolly. Mad Cowboy Disease, his melancholy solo masterpiece, was powered by Plaid Pantry coffee and Copenhagen. Now that Cousin Todd is gone, these songs are as close as I can get to the secure feeling I always had in his company, goddamned genius gentleman that he was.

Some of us were there to pursue dreams of making a life with art at the center. I guess I was pursuing a dream of helping friends pursue dreams of a life with art in the center. We split into two households, not half a mile between us. Across from the purple house I lived in, was a 24 hour Plaid Pantry.

The Plaid, as it looked from our front stoop. Pretty convenient.

The Plaid Pantry experience was utilitarian. I don’t remember the staff, or any notable hot menu items. I mainly remember Hamm’s, the beer with a cartoon bear mascot.

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We crossed 30th Ave back and forth like tin ducks re-stocking the fridge. I do think they sold pancake mix, my other staple. Portland was a big city to me at the time. The biggest place I’d ever lived. My entire universe ran from that Plaid Pantry to Little Baja, where most of us worked up on Burnside. The Pacific Northwest’s largest importer of piñatas and terracotta, and don’t you ever forget it. “Gotta Lotta Terra Cotta”, yeah, that was me.

Litte Baja

Juancho

Deep in the ‘Rona Country

I’d researched him for days waiting for him to get my message and return my call. I knew he was an Air Force helicopter medic in Iraq. I knew everywhere he’d been to college. I expected a skilled diplomat, savvy in the handling of distressed family members at his hospital almost a year into this pandemic.

So I was caught completely off guard when he charged me on the sidewalk, veins bulging in his head. His physical stature identical to a vending machine, one fist clenched, the other finger pointed at my face spitting inside his KN95 about me being the one harassing his staff and taking photographs in his hospital.

Apparently it is perhaps not legal to take photographs of hospital employees inside a hospital not wearing a face covering, an action that sounds very unlike me although I can’t be certain I didn’t do it.

After so many fruitless calls, cordial requests, and insistent private online messages requesting a moment of accountability, what choice did I have? What choice would you have if it was your loved one with their back to the wall, certain to not survive should the virus saunter its way from an uncovered nose to their lungs? His dutiful assistant failed to provide the gentleman with the full context of our many interactions and instead provided the miserly synopsis that finally got him out of his chair to find me.

Despite his size and military training he was the one in danger. Motivation to protect one’s reputation stands no chance against the drive to protect one’s family. If he killed me he would need a surgeon to cut my hands from his throat.

Security, roused from their listless stupor, came to his aid, which he quickly dismissed. In between his threats of arrest and my presentation of evidence we grappled our way to a new understanding. Yes, it has been hard. Yes, fatigue sets in, and yes, every single god damn person should have their face covered in a hospital, and hold each other accountable to the highest standard of safety for the patients, if not each other.

As the temperature between us dropped he sighed, “I wish you had just called me first.” I clutched a bench to keep from spinning off the earth from the irony, my phone log a solid line of call attempts dating to last week. “Man” I deadpanned, “thanks for the suggestion. I’ll try that next time.” We exchanged cell numbers and agreed to keep the lines of communication open, as the saying goes.

A box of fresh masks appeared at the front desk, and shortly after he texted me. He thanked me for bringing the issues to their attention, acknowledged they needed perhaps a renewal of pandemic vows so to speak. Most importantly, he inquired as to my loved one’s condition, status, and care plan. He checked in again last night, just before I fell into a hard sleep.

It’s touch and go out there everyone. We have to dig in with our fingernails if we are going to make it through this together. The virus is truly the least of our worries.

Juancho